Well Well well.... I'm totally working.... and its Wednesday... aka... my day off. lol JK Lisa Pope! i love you. but i must say that last night i was watching a tv show that my landlord (in so many words) was making me watch (or i was not crying enough to move from my beer and company to care that much) and there was a little old lady, about 76 i think she said. She was in an American Idol sort of talent show with Nick Cannon as the host...(seriously?) Either way back to the point, this little old lady was in the Semi-Finals (Woot!) and she was giving her little story and a portion of her story was really upsetting, she had been a widow for quite a long time. Then i immediately thought of my job... you could not ever imagine how many widowed, elderly people there are, lonely, divorced, no children, no people to notify in case they passed or got slammed by a car or struck by lightning. This is honestly strange sight to see, loneliness wrinkles their face, and sadness makes them weak and just not care. I can't imagine my life like that. I just don't think i could handle it.

I know Whaa whaa thats what happens when you get old, but its literally being shoved into my face everyday, i dont really know what i would do with out these people that i love in my life, and what happens if i get married and fall in love, what if i died and left that person all wrinkled and sad. I hate the fact that every one gets old, decrepit and sick... its really sad working here. Thank god there are occasional babies hahaha